Craving the Friendship of Women

Lately I've found myself craving more friendships. Not just any friendship but almost a village of other like-minded women. It's so weird because I've never felt this need for friends before. When we lived in Kansas, I was surrounded by my family (most importantly my mom) that I didn't feel the need to make friends. During college I lived with lots of different women and although I love so many of them to death, I never fully opened up enough to create long lasting friendships relationships.

It's so weird to crave something I never felt the need for before. It's also weird to think about making friends in my thirties. I talked to a few friends about it and one of my friends said that she felt it was harder to make friends as an adult because she's so jaded now. I can relate to that. I don't want to be friends with someone just because our husbands work together or because we live in the same neighborhood. I want to be friends because we genuinely enjoy each other's company. We can share things and learn from each other, even if we don't have a lot of the same interests.

For some reason, I think I'll find that in Hawaii. I guess if I keep putting out positive vibes, eventually I'll find a woman village of my own.

Pregnancy Notes // 24 Weeks

Today I got to see this little baby again and I fell even more in love. Everything is right on track although I am measuring a week early. That's pretty normal for me though. I'm pretty short so the baby doesn't seem to have anywhere to go but outwards. My doctor estimated that the baby will be between seven and eight pounds at birth which matches with the boys.

This pregnancy has me a bit more stressed about my postpartum body. I didn't really think about it at all with Liam and only a bit with Asher but for some reason, I feel like this time I won't be able to "bounce back". I have all these fears about stretch marks and loose skin and while I try to remind myself that there is little I can do about either, they still weigh on my mind often. I haven't been as active as I hoped with this pregnancy but I was in great shape beforehand. I hope that counts for something.

Other than that, this baby is awesome and I can't wait to continue our bond for the next 16ish weeks.