Sunshine through the Rain

Although my last post was a bit depressing (maybe because it talked about depression), things in our home have been looking up. I've decided to take the necessary steps to my our life a happy and healthy one.

Since becoming a wife and a mother, I have put myself to the side and made my life about Will and Liam. Now don't get me wrong, I love these guys with all of my heart and wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. I just haven't been taking care of myself. I became Will's wife and Liam's mom and somewhere in there I got lost.

Well, no more! I'm taking the steps to become the best wife and mom I can be by taking care of myself. I looked into my diet and exercise routines and realized that I wasn't doing either (no wonder I have been feeling depressed). We've decided to start eating clean and cutting out processed foods. It hasn't been easy but I definitely have noticed a difference in my energy level. I can't tell you how awesome it felt to cook dinner last night (chicken fajitas and guacamole) and know every single ingredient in the food. Wow, I just got really excited about food.

Along with diet, I also decided to include more exercise into our daily activities. Liam and I have added stroller walks to our weekly schedule. It gives us a chance to get out of the house and explore a bit. I also went to a Zumba class with my friend, Krystal. It was a blast and I would love to add it to our weekly schedule as well.

One of the most important steps I've taken is seeing a counselor. I have only attended one session so far but I can already see who it will be helpful. We were able to set some goals for the next two weeks and I must say, I am getting excited to regain my happiness and be the best mother and wife I can be.

Losing the Baby Weight

I'll admit it, I have never like exercising. I actually rarely exercise. This may seem confusing since I'm in the National Guard but in all actuality, our yearly Physical Training test was also my yearly exercise session.

While in high school, I weighed 128-130 lbs. I started to lose some weight during my senior year and when I joined the Guard in 2004, I lost quite a bit of weight in basic training (I left weighing 114 lbs). Over the next few years, my weight stayed pretty steady.

That is until I got pregnant. At my first appointment, I weighed 124 lbs. At the end of my pregnancy, I weighed 169 lbs. I gained waaayyy too much, especially for my small frame. I'm not sure what I expected to happen after having Liam. I knew that I would lose a little weight afterwards but I don't think I fully understood that I would have to actually exercise to lose the rest. Well, I understand that now.

It's not that I'm lazy, I just hate exercising and I have gotten used to eating whatever I want (which is a horrible combination if you don't like being fat). I definitely have lots of motivation to lose the weight: an upcoming PT test, looking amazing for Will's homecoming but most importantly, being fit for Liam.

I really hope I can do it. I want to get back down to at least 115 lbs. I haven't weighed myself recently once I do, I will definitely start to update on my weight loss progress.

Wish me luck!